She's feeling some pain today. I let her have a ball and i think it was too soon. i believe that pushing the ball with her nose was painful, but she couldn't not do it. Took the ball away, and will wait till the staples are out to try again. could be a good tool for therapy.

Last night felt some small flicker in her left foreleg and pelvic leg during p.t. This morning felt and saw actual attempt to pull legs away from my stretching them. Good!

got the hang of bladder expressing. just like milking a cow. i have not milked a cow, but i guess you would get the same thrill the first time you did milk one successfully. Called into LVRC and got some questions answered.

1. is not the best to express bladder too often. should really wait around 8 hours. she needs to learn the feeling of a full bladder.
   
2. sleeplessness could be caused by the pain patch she's wearing. That should come off tomorrow mid day.
3. Could take around a week or more for her to poop after the anesthesia. and no, it will be pretty normal, not some massive dump like i feared.
4. no rolling over back at all till staples are out. i guess i should have figured that one. better to know for sure.

There was some dampness on her pillow yesterday. think she may have peed a little when i moved her.

will try not to obsess on each day, but look at weekly improvements.
will try not to obssess on her and get some work done. i just get a kick out of aiding the sick. so didn't mean to write cheese ball poem just then. A thrill helping the ill?
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i've never had any creature this dependent on me before. it is huge and heartbreaking.
found a small round mass in her left cheek. what the hell?
have some questions.
1. why wait to express bladder when she sometimes pees uncontrollably? at least, she leaks.
2. when do we begin electric current therapy?
3. when do we begin creatine?
need to buy "Urine-Gone"
going to bed now. need to make a calendar to keep up with meds and therapies. thera-pees.